I have to admit, our most recent move back to Chicago has been a struggle. Though we are thrilled to be back in this city, the transition has been filled with ups and downs, emotions and frustrations.
We found a sweet little apartment on the North Side, which we are thrilled about and we are settling in quite well, but in addition to the big changes we've underwent in the last two years, this most recent move left me worked up and frustrated with how much stuff we have. As one who is in a very minimal stage of my life, I just couldn't deal with all the stuff. Granted, it's stuff that we love, our books, our cooking equipment, my art materials and Tonys records, but it just felt like so much. I felt completely overwhelmed and upset at myself for holding onto so many things throughout the years. Adding to the stress, our space is now smaller, thanks to one of our bedrooms being the nursery for our baby girl. It's such a cozy little room and I am so thrilled to have a space for her, but boy do I miss our office/studio space that we had been accustomed to.
But now that we've got everything moved in, the boxes unloaded and there is a place for (almost) everything, I feel so much better and have finally felt more myself. I am trying my best to capture the quiet morning moments, the natural sunlight and the warmth of summer. These are the times that I treasure the most and I know that things will be changing quite a bit soon.
So in these last few weeks before our baby girl is born, I want to spend time recapturing myself, who I am, what I want and how I feel. I want to tone down the pressure I put on myself to create new artwork and be social, and just let things unfold as they will. I want to go for walks with my husband, hang out with Henry, sip iced coffee, read books, bake cookies and reacquaint myself with this great city and the people in it. I want to capture this time and breathe it in and be fully me everyday before I become a mama.